the.news.

The bad news i've eluded to in past posts is now definite, so i can share here: the b.'s are moving to hong kong in july for 2-3 years. It's been up in the air for months, but everything that needed to fall into place did this past week, so the girls were told the news last night. I can't describe how devastated i am. These are the people i have known for almost ten years and lived with for seven. Not only did i help raise the girls and consider them like my own, but a. and p. are both like older siblings and second parents to me. They're my family, my security. The hardest part is that a. is who i'd usually talk to about something like this, but i can't this time. I don't want to add unnecessary stress to what's obviously already hard for them. I have been spending most of my free time with them. Today we worked on a science report and played yahtzee. At one point i considered trying to separate myself from them a little now so it won't be so hard when they leave, but let's be honest- it's going to suck regardless, and i'd rather see them as much as possible while i can. If i have any friends left in august, i'll have plenty of time to spend with them then. I don't expect everyone to understand why i'm having such a hard time with this; unless someone's been through the same situation, i don't think it's possible to truly comprehend. The best example i can come up with is this: you have the perfect marriage. Then your husband divorces you when there were never any problems, gets everything, moves your children across the world and leaves you all alone. Maybe this means i'm overly attached or reliant or whatever, and maybe it will be healthy for me to be by myself for a while. Who knows. On the upside (since there always has to be one), i'll have a fantastic place to visit. I'm already planning to spend the entire summer of 2009 with them. I'll also be house sitting while they're gone, which will come in handy when i'm in school with $0 income. It also means that i'll have plenty of room for guests.